It's 12:02 am. I have been meaning to create this journal for a while. I have been taking photos for about three years now and I have come a long way from my early days. I feel like I have reached a point in my photography career where I can no longer progress further. I have felt like this before but it has never stuck around this long. Comparing my older photos to my recent ones gives me hope that I will get out of this creative dead zone.
The photo above is one of my very first shots. I was so excited about learning a new technique. I never thought I could pull something like this off but I surprised myself. I started out basic. I never tried taking portraits because I feared to fail, I feared not being able to deliver a photo worthy of the client's praise. So I stuck to what I knew. I became basic.
After some time I gained enough courage to get over my fear of failing. I learned a new technique. I tried portraits. I tried Neon Portraiture. Once again I surprised myself.
It happened again. I plateaued. Neons were the same in every photo. They all looked the same. I tried something different but this time the results didn't surprise me.
This entire time I have been trying to impress others with my work. Then just stopped trying, I stopped caring. It all changed after that. I was genuinely pleased with my work.
I am proud of all my work. Especially my recent work but I want to do better. I know I can do better. But I am back in this creative dead zone.
Everything started so colorfully. Now everything is just black and white.
Thank you so much if you made it this far. This is a gloomy post but it's how I feel right now. I promise I don't hate life. :D